Heavy Hearted.

“Be careful, or your hearts will be weighed down with dissipation, drunkenness and the anxieties of life, and that day will close on you suddenly like a trap. For it will come on all those who live on the face of the whole earth. Be always on the watch, and pray that you may be able to escape all that is about to happen, and that you may be able to stand before the Son of Man.” - the gospel of Luke

These past, I dont know how long, days/months. This is how I have felt, heavy hearted. I couldn’t figure out what exactly was causing these things to happen. But as a read the gospel of Luke, I felt as if God answered this question I had been asking him for a while.

He responded with this verse.

Are you weighed down with dissipation? webster defines it as: 1.wasteful expenditure 2. an act of self-indulgence

Are you wasting your time on things God doesnt want you to be doing? I was. Exactly which things he hasnt pointed out to me yet, this can go from simply the time of rest or even investing into people’s lives. Now I am not saying mentoring/discipleship/investing is a waste of time, but I now believe that if you just go about doing it on your own and not with the permission or wisdom of God discipling someone can lead to a waste of time. The other definition I believe is us going about again living on our own wisdom rather than the wisdom of God, like the prodigal son who wastes all his money to satisfy his vices, I too can go on a spree and waste God’s grace on my own vices.

Righteousness goes before him and prepares the way for his steps. – the book of Psalms

God cautions us with this verse stated in Psalms to have our days prepared by the Lord and not our own sticky notes of to dos.

Drunkenness? webster defines this as : 1.of, relating to, or characterized by intoxication

Jesus said to them, “Very truly I tell you, unless you eat the flesh of the Son of Man and drink his blood, you have no life in you. Whoever eats my flesh and drinks my blood has eternal life, and I will raise them up at the last day. For my flesh is real food and my blood is real drink. Whoever eats my flesh and drinks my blood remains in me, and I in them. – the gospel of John

I dont have a drinking problem and neither do I drink alcohol, but this relates to me in more ways than alcohol. Jesus repeatedly says here to drink his blood, now what he is saying is totally symbolic. But I had been drinking things other than his blood and as a result it just continued the process of me having a heavy heart. We must drink him so that he may be in us daily, we cant let the influences of the world grab our attention away from him.

Anxieties of life.

I dont worry much, I think. We all the know the economy/world/everything is going through quite a rut. As a result these days I definitely have been less trusting of God’s provision and put my financial checkbook into my own hands. I want to give him all my worries/fear/anxieties.

Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life ? – the gospel of Matthew

I write this because it happened to me and it can happen to you as Jesus states in the opening verse. I feel as if God is grabbing a hold of my heart and squeezing it dry of all the nasty/pus/oozy junk out of it so that it can no longer be a heavy heart but a heart white as snow longing after Him.

Be on the watch and pray.